Losing you

Aku takde perasaan.



Aku takde penjelasan.



Aku takde keputusan.





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Busy... body

it has been a while aku tak post ape2 kat blog ni. to tell the truth, approx 10 times aku try to write something.. but nothing posted. hasilnye, banyak post yg autosave as draft jer dlm acc aku nih. hurm...

Lately, I just cant express myself. aku taktau ape yg ade dlm benak fikiran aku. sejauh mane aku cube fikir pon, aku takleh translate sume tu into words. i guess maybe aku leh elasily write something bile aku kusut, sakit hati, sedih, serabot.. bile aku nk kua kan sume thought aku pasal bende2 yang x best. aku cube evaluate diri aku. maybe betul, post aku dlm ni sume mood 'hujan', bla bla bla yang tak best aje. yg 'happy' very little. maybe kalo happy pon, just get extremely happy till aku rase sayings tak cukup utk aku express kehepian aku.. aku dah merepek~

so. so. so.

so many things happen. thought of keeping it all to myself.

ok. there is one thing; i'm giving it up. Balik dr Sarawak, aku tibe2 jadik Asst. Program Manager tuk program kulliyah yg tinggal 3 weeks to go. Instead of busy adding and dropping subjek [not that bz since aku x add n drop papepon.. still, aku tgh fikir what subjek to be drop sementare drop only masih on ni.], aku jugak bz mending broken life [haha, tbe2 masuk lagu]

but the point is, aku busy skang. dgn meeting tak habis2. dgn entah pape lg tah aku pon x tau. with all that, ade tak sape2 paham yang aku betul2 bz skang? deeply understand kalo aku x reply mesej or aku x angkat call... n aku tdo awal. who's on the earth really understand? i believe its none. or should i put a poll survey in the facebook or friendster? haha. [everything i said; all ended up a merepeks thing]

In 3 weeks time, aku x reply msj and answer call. then IF. IF aku mesej saying something like, "Sory, i've been busy". Aku tak pecaye org tu akn simply say something like, "never mind, i understand" pastu takde react kecik2 aty dgn aku.

O world, believe me. I'm busy.

Maybe i should add another point, those busy things make my credit flow mcm air. aku kne mesej EVERY committees which are about 30-60 people to confirm meeting, bla bla bla. AND the most important point maybe; I'm not in the mood of replying messages and answering calls. HAHA. puas hati?

Amek ko skali tules taknak panjang pulak. okesh la. cukup merepek~

Hilang

Mane pegi my bunch of stuffs? ade cable fon, duit syiling 20sen dan yg paling penting. KAD MATRIK! aduh... esok luse nk balik uia da. em barang yg jarang2 kite kua kn dr tempatnye, jd cenggitu la bile skali kite pakai. entah ke mane. time genting tu la die nak hilang. tym x nk pakai duk menyemak depan mate. huhu. emm. still got 3 days nk cari or else xleh g sarawak ke ape. huhu. em. gonna enjoy my week at Kuching, Sarawak next week. InsyaAllah! rase mcm nk pergi tak kembali pon ade ni... doakan aku selamat pergi dan selamat kembali ke mane2 saje :)

Bad day

Usia: 1 bulan @ less

Tatau nak ckp ape. Sakit hati. Sedih. Entah. Saba je la....

Something goes wrong somewhere

Esok kuiz Java. Kuiz numeric smlm aku tak bape nak kesah sangat even mmg cm sengal2 jer. But aku betul risaukn pointer. If numeric wat kacaw mase sotsem tu mmg disaster. Esok2 payah la gile aku nak build everything back up. Umpama gula yang jatuh berterabur atas pasir pantai walopon takla mustahil aku nak kutip balik tapi agak mustahil jugak la :P

Kuiz Java ni aku sikit yakin la walopon skang da pukol 1010pm sedangkan aku tak setat bace pape lg and sempat pulak aku online semate2 nak meraban kat cni. Huhu. Dah ler assignment tak siap lagi n planning nk wat 12am mlm ni but cm da ngantok2 sikit skang. Ape nak jadik la aku ni…

Really feel ade tak kene kat mane2. Tapi entah kat mane. My baby [laptop aku] ni pulak tak habis2 nak buat hal. Asik nk kne force cabot batery. Hmm… dah la boot slow. Mmg many things go wrong many where ni… Lol! Hah amek ko skang ade less than 5 mins to 11pm. Nk sejam aku melayan laptop. Kalo ko burden aku lg, ade jugak bayi terbuang nanti… Dahla aku nk layan buku lak!